nahanap ko rin!

i have been looking for someone's profile for such a long time.. it just vanished! and i couldn't get a hold of her.. having her account was kind of like a way for me to check on what's happening with her.. what's new with her.. cause i can't be there for her.. figuratively and literally.. it sucks...





i was alone the whole day in the house (my parents') and i watched a lot of college humor videos and a movie called married life. the movie was not good but college humor is as usual, very entertaining.. i remembered that i did something really bad way back in sophomore (college) year to some guy who was sending me weird messages in friendster.. it freaked me out that he was asking me for my address DESPITE the fact that i did not respond to any of his messages.. i sent him a very mean message... AS IN!! i said something about him creeping me out and there's something wrong with him... and you should not just go ging to profiles and asking them weird stuff... it's really mean... in fact, i saw the guy in MoA that weekend and he looked really angry.. for a second there, i thought he was following me... it's weird... but i did not think he was gay... i just have an aversion with strangers for some reason..











when i remembered this event, i went to my inbox archive in friendster to look for him and apologize for the cruel words i said.. i was just hoping i could make peace with him... i couldn't find the messages though but i saw the messages i had with a girl that i have been trying to talk to so i was able to message her... i've been meaning to talk to her for so long... i called her twice but she was always out of the house... good news is, i found out she changed her name to _________________.. hehe... i should have thought of this sooner.. God I miss her! I just wanted to hear from her.. see how she's doing... we've been friends since first grade... and as far as i remember, she was my first crush... hahahahah! i hope she'd drop me a line... haaaayyyy...








and i still feel bad about the guy but i don't know what to do anymore.. i don't even remember his name.. but i think my sincere eagerness to apologize for my past mistakes was a blessing... at least now i know i could still talk to her... over the internet... HOW GEEKY... hehehe.... ciao!







SIDE NOTE:

i'm off to SMX tom for this job fair... i have a couple of things going but i wanna see if there are better things in store for me... i'm excited.. in the sense that i'm pursuing a job... and i'm also scared because i heard there are lots of people... i have this thing with crowded places... i feel like i can't breathe... i'm claustrophobic (i'm not sure if the spelling's right)...