I am a tad different from who I was a year ago. I guess I pretty much have the same personality. I make the same jokes (and not all people get it, just those who think the same way I do haha). So anyway, I think I did not really change in how I deal with others, etc. but I do think I am starting to grow up. This would even be made manifest but the apprent thinning of my hairline, which bums me out to my very core! And my face looks a bit older than I was a year ago...
But I think real adulthood begins when we realize that we have obligations to pay. It makes us stick to something not because we want it but because we know our priorities. I always wondered why some people stick to their jobs even if they hate it-thereby making them alienated workers. But I now realize that there are things that we need to do even though we do not like to do them or we do not enjoy them simply because we have to. We have needs that we need to fulfill. It is in this respect that I would like to dedicate this blog entry. I recently purchased a 2-year subscription for wireless broadband. So I am committed to pay a two-year service and I cannot revoke it unless I have it transferred and that is fine. Now, I find myself committing to another responsibility. My parents are leasing me money to buy my own car. It is really cool and all because I would finally use a car that is under my name. I would admit though, it is quite frightening for me but I think it is something I would have to do in the future anyway so why not right? I am very happy about it but I am also quite scared... What if I lose my source of income? How will I pay for it? I mean, my parents would be patient with me and all but it would be quite embarrassing on my end and I do honor my word...
But at the end of the day, it is all about growing up and knowing your responsibilities. I am starting to understand why adults act the way they do. There are necessities in life that we need to do. It is quite understandable why people are so scared of losing their jobs (in my case, I have house utilities contribution, gas, my own opex, internet and now lease). It is quite interesting how life pans out..
I always knew it was going to be hard.
But I expected it to be easier than the reality..
