ADULTHOOD

I am a tad different from who I was a year ago. I guess I pretty much have the same personality. I make the same jokes (and not all people get it, just those who think the same way I do haha). So anyway, I think I did not really change in how I deal with others, etc. but I do think I am starting to grow up. This would even be made manifest but the apprent thinning of my hairline, which bums me out to my very core! And my face looks a bit older than I was a year ago...

But I think real adulthood begins when we realize that we have obligations to pay. It makes us stick to something not because we want it but because we know our priorities. I always wondered why some people stick to their jobs even if they hate it-thereby making them alienated workers. But I now realize that there are things that we need to do even though we do not like to do them or we do not enjoy them simply because we have to. We have needs that we need to fulfill. It is in this respect that I would like to dedicate this blog entry. I recently purchased a 2-year subscription for wireless broadband. So I am committed to pay a two-year service and I cannot revoke it unless I have it transferred and that is fine. Now, I find myself committing to another responsibility. My parents are leasing me money to buy my own car. It is really cool and all because I would finally use a car that is under my name. I would admit though, it is quite frightening for me but I think it is something I would have to do in the future anyway so why not right? I am very happy about it but I am also quite scared... What if I lose my source of income? How will I pay for it? I mean, my parents would be patient with me and all but it would be quite embarrassing on my end and I do honor my word...

But at the end of the day, it is all about growing up and knowing your responsibilities. I am starting to understand why adults act the way they do. There are necessities in life that we need to do. It is quite understandable why people are so scared of losing their jobs (in my case, I have house utilities contribution, gas, my own opex, internet and now lease). It is quite interesting how life pans out..


I always knew it was going to be hard.




But I expected it to be easier than the reality..

My accepted beliefs are becoming validated...

If I had 10M USD 3 months ago, I would have made 700k USD by now... Imagine that! I have made a total gain of 7% in 3 months. And the best part about it is I never even bother to look at my stocks in a daily basis...

Haaayyyy.. If I only had that much money in real life...

Brick Walls

Brick walls are there for a reason. They prove to you how badly you really want something. They are there to block off the other people; those who do not want it enough.

- Randy Pausch

who took away my smile?

up until recently, i was not paying that much attention to the changes that have been going on in my life until i looked at myself in the mirror and saw that i had a gloomy frown in my face...

who took away my smile?

how did it come to this?

so i have been searching for a way to smile.. and i have realized that the only way that i could smile is when i find a source of joy...

where can i find it?


















That's THE Question... And it has be-lingered my thoughts for days if not weeks.

2010: A New Book is About to be Written

I have always imagined my life as a story that has to be written; something that has to be told to people one day. I have been obsessed by writing journals and putting entries in the world wide web so those who would be interested in writing my biography could get bits and pieces from archives and the internet..

But seeing that I have not really done anything extraordinary, I do not know why people would be willing to up this kind of effort in the future.. haha! Even so, it has become my habit to share a thing or two of out-of-the-normal or simply mundane moments of my life. It gives me delight and a touch of happiness when I recall what has transpired while I jot it down-it also gives me time to evaluate my actions and my thoughts.

2009 has been quite interesting for me. I am very grateful for the good and even the bad things that happened. I cannot ask for anything more. I am tempted to look at my past entries to see how my year went but I am afraid I will not succumb to that vanity-primarily because I think it silly...

I am really looking forward to this new year.. a new book has to be written and there are 365 days worth of pages! Exciting! :)

a full week of interest

This week has been quite interesting for me and a lot of people from Citi. Well, I seem to be improving at work, I think... People are getting stressed because of all the ad hoc tasks we are being given aside from our main job of making sure payments are made to suppliers.

It was the middle of this week that I did foreign currency processing. I had a better grasp of what to do but I am still not used to it. It is not an easy task to order foreign currency so you could pay the supplier in their desired currency. I got two more next week and I gotta be honest, I'm not so happy about it... I was also assigned to validate the TANDE invoices, and Aging reports aside from my GIRO report and it is taking a good amount of my time-time that should be focused on processing. Hopefully, I could pass back the TANDE to my co-worker who is on mandatory leave when she is back.

Enough about work. (as in work) I attended my first company christmas party and it was pretty interesting. I got to see a couple of people I don't really know and I was able to chat with a couple of them, which is pretty cool. Kinda reminds me of the days of parties in college I attend wherein I barely know anyone and end up chatting and laughing out loud with people. Oh, I danced by the way. I was so nervous I had to do my regimen for releasing pressure and stress. (I'd rather not post it here cause my dad knows about this blog... haha) It was pretty cool. It made me kinda stressed looking for a hoodie to wear cause I don't have one and am not planning on wearing one on a regular day. My sis accompanied me to sm dept store Thursday night to look for the cheapest one I could buy. We got one for like 500 or something but my older sis said the brand looks terrible. Good thing my sister's bf lent me one so all is well that ends well. Thanks dude! It was quite nice that people said our presentation was great and some girl said, "Hey! You were the dancer right? I'm from West but I was cheering for you guys." Gave me a big smile so I courteously said, "Thank you. Enjoy the rest of the night. She was going back to the office at 10pm on a Friday to work. Geee... We really are workaholics. Oh! And my boss told me I work too hard. I took it as a compliment. It was nice hearing it. Feels even better than getting my paycheck. :)

Oh! And the most important thing about this week was what transpired this morning. My dad gave me an opened envelope that was sent by UA&P. I was quite surprised when I read it...

"I'm being invited to take my Master's degree in Applied Business Economics by Dr. Terosa. I did not expect this because he told our group we were not good researchers back in 4th year. Of course Jared is in the 5th year on his way to MA in Industrial Economics. But yeah it was quite flattering to be invited five months after your graduation by Doc T! I don't think I can accept it til next year or in 2011 though. I do not want my parents to shoulder the expenses so I want to pay for my tuition on my own. Secondly, I gotta make sure I am in the position wherein I could avoid having to render OT on class days because Doc T is quite strict with attendance but you can't really leave your obligations at work behind..."

I do want take my Master's some day so I gotta save up. :)


P.S.

My mom and grandma are back from Aklan... Crabs and suman galore! ;p

when men try to act like gods..

If you are an avid fan of asian telenovelas (by this, i am referring to the oriental ones), you would probably have seen meteor garden and boys over flowers. These shows show to us how 4 brats live like as if they own the whole country because they are so affluent and powerful... Some would find this attractive and cool. But if you try to be rational about it, it is very dismaying to have these people exist in the real world... Unfortunately, there are punks like these in the real world...

What the country has witnessed recently is the shameless massacre of over 30 people (mediamen and those filing for candidacy) by the alleged incumbent governor of a province in Mindanao (somewhere in Maguindanao). I find this utterly dismaying because not only is it cold blooded massacre; it is a manifestation of how the killers have lived their lives (I am not certain until now who it is. Nobody is certain because we cannot simply state the obvious. We need strong proof.). Let us look at this objectively, it is not by simple impulse that one could do such a vile and horrific act. Whoever did this has been doing a lot of repulsive wrongdoings throughout his/her life. It would take a gravely scarred and callous conscience to even think of such an act; more so, to have it executed!

I am not one to condemn but whoever did this deserves nothing but a slow and painful death. I have never thought I would think of this being a pro-life and all but this is really terrible. The husband of the murdered wife has all the reason in the world to act like the guy from law abiding citizen. I just hope he does not resort to that. I hope he can find a way to move on and keep living. If he couldn't, I can't blame him.

As a final word, "FOR THOSE WHO WERE INVOLVED IN THIS MASSACRE, SHAME ON YOU! YOU ARE ALREADY BURNING IN HELL EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE STILL BREATHING!! YOU BELONG TO THE GROUP OF HITLER AND STALIN. YOU WOULD FOREVER BE REMEMBERED AS THE TYRANTS OF THIS PLANET!"



"Hey Megalomaniac! You're no jesus! Yeah, you're no fucking Elvis! Wash your, hands yeah know yourself maniac! Step down! Step down! Step down!"

AND BURN IN HELL!!! YOU ASS!!! X(